sighhh.

right, now that ive set my mind on

getting into SIA to be an air-stewardess,

i was rejected at the round where

i have to get my face, arm, neck and ankle

checked for any mole, scar or tattoo.

its that faint burn mark on the side of my arm!

it wasnt even obvious but they just had to

consider such stringent measure into their recruitment.

why? :((( i actually got that scar from doing lab work

and it has been there for almost 2years already.

dear chemistry, just what have you done to me?

mega :(

i feel so lost.

everybody has a job now,

or at least, they have a direction now.

they know what they want to be,

what kind of job they want,

but what about me?

i don't have a dream job in particular,

i don't even know what kind of job i want.

i want to be something,

yet im not doing anything about it.

how's that answering to myself?

hello hello.

im back from my 14days of grad trip at awesome aussie!

and have i mentioned that i passed my quantum module?

YES I PASSED! AND I GOT A BIG FAT B

WHILE I THOUGHT I MIGHT JUST GET ANOTHER F!

lalalalala happy me! commencement will be on the 8july 10am.

dear friends, please make urself free at this timing and

come down to take graduation pics with me okays!

its really a big load off my heart now that im done and over with my studies.

gonna start my ordeal of job hunting now where i still dono what i want to work as.

what can a Bsc be if i don wanna become a boring chemist?

on a sidenote, i have 1500pics to sort out now!

cos we freaking travelled and covered the whole of south australia from

brisbane to goldcoast, sydney, adelaide, great ocean road & down to melbourne.

great trip overall and wonderful memories. hee i shall stop here before

i start to get nostalgic missing mary our farm pig,

camelia our farm camel and all the fluffy sheeps at adelaide!

food for thought.

was talking to a few friends yesterday and, while the guys were debating over

some political stuff and its impact on our lives, szekai mentioned something and

that struck me as a reminder that i failed to make myself realise everyday.

he asked us: "你不感觉生活现在过得很好吗？"

and he feels that his simple life now is great. and he takes anything good that

that happens to him as a bonus on top of the fact that he's able to be alive.

this got me thinking once im alone on my way home.

ya, i feel, that, my life now is really really good.

i have so many things now.

friends, family and a stable roof above my head.

i should be a happy contented girl!

so YES. i should be glad with whatever i have now!

and appreciate the life that i have, now!

and its time i stop going blindly after things that i want but don't already have.

cos afterall, i may not need them at all.

im alright just being this self-sufficient me, the mighty happy ME!

busy busy.

im finally back home from a night of mj and supper

and i have no idea why im in the mood of blogging

at this unearthly hour of 330am, again!

htht with the girls yesterday's good.

hee i love listening to their stories.

there's always something new to hear,

something unexpected to giggle at.

and, htht with the guys just now are so-so~

guess cause im the only girl there.

but choonyew, be strong! (:

you know, we friends, will still love you forever.

and heres what i realised about how different

girls and guys deal with their breakups:

girls, eat chocolate to forget the bitterness of the breakup,

while guys drink beer to forget the sweetness of the girl.

girls, go shopping, paint their nails, get a new haircut,

bake something sweet, make cards for friends,

and indulge themselves in any other
girl-girly things to make themself happy;

while guys go drinking with their gang of guyfriends,

do vigorous sports, sweat it out, or get away for a short trip

just to make themselves forget everything.

i cant say if a girl or a guy would hurt more in a breakup.

afterall we're all humans and nothings fair.
its never going to be even.

but well, here's what friends are for!
to be there for you,
to do anything for you, with you!

hope my friends feel better after talking! (:

ps: yes, im tired. so goodnight world!
and yayyy im going to the FLB flea with shinye tmr
^^ more shopping! hope we wont wake up too late thou!
sunday i'll be having afternoon lunch buffet with eunice
& monday will be dinner at dingtaifeng
with bazhang and gang. i wanna eat xlb!
haha, busy busy.

sometimes i wish i have a twin sibling too

so ill never have to do things alone.

at least therell will someone there to eat with me,

someone there to go shopping together,

someone there to catch movies together,

and perhaps, i dont even have to cry alone.

if i can have plastic surgery,

i'll want

better skin and complexion

bigger eyes and double eyelids

sharper nose

higher cheekbones
bigger boobs

firmer bottoms

smaller hips

and to be 10cm shorter

I HATE MYSELF

and why do humans have all those body hair

at areas like arm pits? i hate it.

im so gonna go for permanent hair removal

once i earn my pay.

[something interesting that happened today]

i boarded this train alone from amk and theres this taller guy just next to me where he goes:
"hey, hi! can i ask you something?"
me: 'uh-huh?'
him: "are you a model?"
me: "nop im not"
him: "oh ive always thought ure a model"
me: "ha *smiles*, uh always?"
him: "you know, you look very familiar. i always see you in NUS science, are you from NUS?"
me: "ya, science" *smile* (while thinking to myself wow this is creepy)
him: "ha because youre tall you see. and ive always wondered how itll feel if youre standing next to me. *beams at our reflections on the train doors* ah there youre at my eyebrow level."
me: *super awkward smile*

him: "are you serious when you say youre not a model?"

and then blah blah blah we went on talking till ive finally reached my stop to alight.
oh wow hes a stats graduate for like 1 and a half years already but he still remembers my face?
guess my heights really something that makes me outstanding. roarrrs!

yayy im finally finding time to overload this space with photos for my jan/feb♥! till then, updates! they're all below!

cny's here! its time to enjoy this festive season of love fun and food altogether again! whee~ hongbaos are ♥ pineapple tarts are ♥ bak kwa are ♥ and so do those lovely family-get-togethers/ steamboat sessions! i shall update here with my past 2 weeks of outing photos, soon! whoosp didnt have time to do so while i was busy with getting things done all right before this cny! :p